today was a fairytale

bak kate GMD aku feeling2 taylor swift hari ni... hehehe


alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah... thank you dear Allah!! hari ni aku bersyukur sangat2 sebab dapat result yg mmg diri sendiri tak expect...  rase macam mimpi pulak...  aku nk berterima kasih kpd mak abah n abangs2ku n kakaks2ku.. cikgu2 n kawan2... especially GMD... thnks sbb tolong aku... ok lepas ni nk mintak abang2 n kakak2 ku untuk menaja phone blackberry utk aku... hehehe bole kan bole kan??? kalo bole nak mintak yg Torch... tapi abah tak kasi... ok lah, baik! aku mintak Curve or Bold je lahhh.... ok la kn.... atleast... hehehe tu je yg nak beritahu hari ni...

numb thumb dumb jump!

fuuuhhhhhhhhhhhh im so freakg scared right now... i cant eat properly -sumtimes i ate a lot, n sumtimes nk mkn pn x lalu-, i cant sleep well (ok i sleep very2 well), im too terrified to face the fact on the 21st... it is just like the worst nightmare ever... n worst i had a fight with sumone... mcm mana nk minta maaf... because its like so freakg big fight...n tht person means a lot to me... without 'em im nothing... n i am to be blame... because mmg ur own fault pn.... n yah how to minta maaf??? kalau small deal tu mmg lah senang nk minta maaf... haih i just dont know... i wanted to, but i dont know how to do it... maybe some of u might think tht im kinda ego or sumtg... no im not!!!! im just feeling tooooo guilty n dont know how to apologise.... im too scared to face 'em... what am i suppose to do..?? just leave it hanging??? or i shuld apologise by writing a love letters??? yeah! LETTERS! tht would work... i guess...  im so hoping tht it would work... n atleast i do sumtg kn dari nothg at all... kan???


p/s: saja besar kan font so it will look like a very very very very n very long post...

@str0

mari merungut bersama2...!

INFO....
haih ape la... ptut nye info tu bantu orang nak faham cerita tu pasal ape... ni kau tulis satu ayat je kat info tu... memeang la aku faham... sangat x membantu...  tu la acik kayo tak nak pakai @str0 kek rumah... buat habih boras den jo... baik den tengok tibi biaso... (speaking nogori pulak..hehehe)..


B3LL@....
ni pulak lagi seekor...  tak payah la buat channel ni stay kan je lah B4U tu... horny kot... ade ke tunsjuks scene yg 18xxx... ok fine mmg la channel tu utk org besa... tapiiii kalau ade budak2 tertekan channel tu gimana??? n nk2 pulak time tu lah rexeki malang nasib dia ternengok..... tak ke terpause lama kat situ.... kalau aku ternengok x pe lagi... sebab itew dah becar.... hehehe besa la sgt..... xxxx maksud aku xde la smapai nak tiru aksi lagak ngeri dia... kan GEN X skrg golongan yg suka mencuba... x pedulik lah dia benda tu salah ke idak..  (aku GEN X pencen...hehehe)


p/s: im just expressing my views here... if u dont like it, i cant do anytg... diff people have their own way of judging things.... 

gudbye LOVE

hey guys... hehehe well i have an oath to make...

 "saya, the owner of ths blog.. akan berjanji tidak akan memikirkan pasal love lg... samapai lah saya berjaya mendapat ijazah"

i really mean it guys... especially GMD (please take note)... kalau aku tersasar, tlg ingt kan aku.. tau2.. in fact i have a partner or like join venture la jugak for my oath ni... n he's my standard5 punya crush... he agreed to do this oath with me...


p/s: this oath will officially batal if ada anak raja datang meminang... hehehe

dear awk...

actually this what i wantd to say u d other day... but when it comes to talkg, i get nervous easily... evry single word tht ive arranged in my head slipped away when i heard u on the otherside of d phone...

dear awk...

       sy dah pk sume ni msk2...i think im not ready for this lovey dovey stuff... n in fact awk sendri yg ckp awk dah x percaya dgn true love lg... u said u wanna try to chnge tht bad perception by being wit me?? i dont wanna risk my feelings for tht... u dont knw how bad n much i was hurt last year... with m^2, mr. ang la n u (yg suddenly chnge ur mind n treat me like i was nothg)... u dont knw tht b'cus u wre not in my shoe.... i think its too early for us to think bout this... ive alrdy close my heart after i saw u in a relationship wit tht girl... u seem so proud being 'in a relationship' without thinkg how i would feel... i hurt so bad tht time... i felt like i ws being fooled n played by a game of urs... i dont wanna risk my heart for tht... i do like u... thre's no doubt for tht statement... but its just tht im not ready yet... im stil in trauma to accept ur proposal to be ur gf... same goes to d other guys out thre... im not ready... ni bkn bermksd yg sy reject awk forever... xxxxx.... x terlintas pn... mybe if u show a little patience n kesungguhan n a little loyalty kat sy mybe i'll keep tht for a double check... sbb if u do love me, u'r willing to wait for me like forever kn... ingt x sy nk sruh awk prove kat sy yg awk btul2 serius ke x kn... act i dont want fancy stuff for u to sow me tht... its just tht if u text me evryday n ask me am i ok or not, tu dah kira prove me sumtg dah.. sy x nk start benda tu dlu sbb i wanna see how much u care bout me... n do u think about me evryday... tu je benda yg awk perlu buat to prove me.. i think we like better be friends je dulu... friends mcm dulu2... sbb it wont hurt me tht bad if awk tiba2 tuka fikiran... im glad tht u've been a jerk towards me tht time... bcuz it teaches me a very valuble.. u shuld take a credit for tht ... :) i do appreciate bile awk mintak maaf... it means a lot to me... u mean a lot to me... i dont wanna risk evrytg tht we had... not now... insyaallah if we do really meant for each other, then we will b together jugak kn... 

fuhhh i feel much more better!!! hmm <3

is he for real???

yeah... if u have read my 'u left me speechless' post... its about a boy tht i was n is into whose being a jerk towards me all the time lps dah bg harapan tinggi menggunung... yup he left me speechless, without saying a thing... he suddenly change n like kept avoidg me for no reason... i dont no why... hmm u know sumtimes its wrong to walk a way when u think its over... but actually theres so much more to say... my heart torn apart when i saw his status 'in a relationship with Amy (not a real name)'... i was like so shock n so patah hati... sbb dlu dia penah ckp tht he didnt want to think bout this relationship stuff sbb busy nk carik kerja lah bagai... cakap x serupa bikin... lps i saw his status, evryday i kept playing tht lagu 'Patah Seribu by Shila Amzah'... evry single day i played tht song... sgt patah seribu at tht time... so yah last saturday i mean kelmarin, he suddenly miss called me... then i  txt him askg why... he said saje je... then we txt je la lps tu.... he wants to say sorry for being such a jerk to me the last few months... n i said to him tht he's really a jerk but still i will forgive him... he's being the old him... the 'him' tht i was i love with dlu... n dia dah broke up with his girlfriend i just dont know wht was his purpose but i liked it... at the same time i think i wanna teach him a lesson... i wanna to see him terhegeh-hegeh at me... i want him to cry me out! i want him to know mcm mane rase nye bila gantung x bertali... but at the same time i just dont wanna lose him again... ahhhh i just dont know.... :/

ravi no more...

yeah.. u heard me (i mean 'u read me').... no more ravi... for all of u who dont know who the hell is ravi... here's an introduction for ya... so yah ravi (not a real name) was my admmt's tuition teacher... n yah he's an indian... he's a tall, dark n handsome... cliche? yah i knw but its true... i was having a huge crush on him when im 17.. yeah we were kinda like so close, i dont knw how but we did... hes like 10 years older thn me.... i knw right.. sumtimes we txt nothng bout admts... ok not sumtmes, but ALL THE TIMES.... thres a story bout tht MINI SKRIT... but yeah x nk crita... malu lah.... GMD je boleh tahu... *back to the story... so me n ravi aint no txtg or contact each other anymore... because i wanted too... cuz he's actg a lil creepy... i mean like he's calling me honey lah syg lah... n not to forget, those sweet talks... omg im so not comfortable wit him.. yeah dlu mmg rasa mcm terbang kt awan... tp bila dah lama2 ni rase strange... n he's way too old for me... yelah i ws just a kid tht time... now im 18 n i just think its not proper to like text wit him... the last msg tht i text him ws "sir, sory.. i cnt text u anymore b'cuz i'm so freakg busy lately.....etc.(i forgot act)" hehehe n furthermore i already lost his number... but the thing is, i owed him my 2 months tuition fees... dont worry i'll pay sooner or later...i really appreciate him for teachg me admts... always be.... :3

you left me speechless...

"i'm a loser in love"

"i'm not a princess

this ain't a fairytale

i'm not the one u sweep off her feet

lead her up the stairwell

i was a dreamer b4 u went n let me down"

"have u changed?

am i no longer in ur eart now?

when i think about u,

it hurts, it hurts a lot"

"why did u have to change?"

"hope this love will soon disappear

without a word u have left me heart broken"

i thought i was stronger but unfortunately i'm not...

people are people...

hey guys! we meet again in my new post.. how do u do??? hehehe.. wll act my post title suppost to be "PEOPLE NOWADAYS" but ya it sounds a lil lame... this post is about sumtg tht happens around me not long ago.. it maybe not about me, but somehow it's maybe about u...
yeah! there's a lot of peoples attitude in this world... well here is some rhyme-me-up... hope u enjoy it...

some people like to help

 while others just having their nap;

some people like to be on top,

 while others just be in the TOP SHOP;

some people like to tell the truth,

 while others like to eat sweet fruit;

some people like to backstab,

while others think it is juz a crap;

this is a humble advise from me

 a nobody to u;

when u know the truth,

dont mix it like a stew

be honest

b'cuz u will get the bonus...

Written by Hidayah Azman™



berlari berkejaran dlm hujan,,,

yupp! i just said tht.... smlm after training, hujan la sikit kat skola tu... time tu plak my mum ambik lambat (nk dkt pkul 4 bru smpai)... saya menunggu bersma 2 org kwn lagi tht is diyy n fara.... kami pn menunggu di 'pondok menunggu' bersama berlindung dibwh hujan (tragis x?).... then suddenly one of us came out wit an idea....


Fara : eh jom buat tego kat situ nk? (smbil tgn menunjuk ke arah empty parkg space in front of the dewan)
Me : aish gile....
Diyy : jom! jom la dayah...saya bersama hati yg bersalah pergi la mengikut kehendak mrk...(ceh pdhl dlm hati nk..hahah)


kami pun practice la kat tgh2 hujan tu mcm org gile... dari tego ke sparing smpai lah kick... lengkap! bila hujan mula lbat kami pn msuk blik dlm 'pondok menunggu' tu... blum habis lg smpai situ...


Fara : jom practice kat dlm skola pulak nk??? (haish fara ni mmg)
Diyy : nk practice kt mne?? jom!Me : .....(hanya menggeleng)....
Fara n Diyy : ala jom la....Me : boleh! tp angkat...(x angkat pn...kne tarik ade la)kami pn berlari2 ke tmpt yg ingn di tuju... baik punye! practice kat bangunn x berbumbung...


smpai je kami pun bukak kasut... mula2 lari2 mcm org gila dlu... then bru la start practce bagai dlm hujan yg lebat lg... tgh2 dorg practce, saya pn berjoging sorg2.. best wey, cbe la try... its really diff when u jog in the rain n when u jog in the sun.. mmg terbaik la... u shuld try it.. smpai kuyup bai kitorg blatih...jgn main2, kerja kuat tu.. hahaha

smpai je rumah kpala mula pening... lps smyg trus tido... then bgun blik mkn coklat n telan 2 biji panadol... then tido...
keesokan harinya tht is today... masing2 demam... da la ade grading lak tu... tp pegi je la grading kn... kalo x membazir den byr... nsib evrytg went smoothly... peluh2 pn kluar gak time tu so da ok la skrg...tu yg bole on9..hehehe


tht's all from me... the conclusion is MAJULAH TAEKWONDO UNTUK NEGARA!! hehehe



TV kata....

hahaha this time im gonna tell u what the TV said to me... ok la its not like the TV act talk me kn... obviously la x kn... aduh.. act i took this 'pesanan penaja' from a drama... hehehe

so it says :

"kita ni perempuan kena be with someone who loves us more...

sbb kalo kita love that guy sampai mati pun but

he didnt appreciate it, mmg waste of time la kn n lg

menyakit kn hati... it's more like clappg on one hand..."

so girls out there, when u read this post, try to undrstand wht i'm tryg to tell u...as for boys who read this post... jgn mrh aku... hahaha rlex arh... the conclusion is we need both hand to clap! heheheh see ya in the next post....

mr. VIP

hey2.... babe he's hot ya know...  yesterday i went taekwndo-ing at master's centre... hehehe... after the traing me n my belovd fren, diyy, we kinda stay for a while to polish up our patterns... (nk grading wey...)
tgh2 practce suddnly mr.VIP msuk.... i was like *W0W! hahaha gatal mata ni... then when he punch the punchg bag, its like *PAM! (im not sure whter it was his kick or his punch act)... another *W0W! right... gila bersemangt... n GILA HOT!!! hahahah



k lah tu je.... see ya in the nxt post..

syaiton2 zaman skrg,,,

haih mmg la kn syaitan2 nowadays jht2 belaka.... suka disturb org bagai nk gila....
ade ke time aku tgh conduct doa kt assembly, dia bole kacau aku...


so last tues, i hd to conduct the prayers in assembly... the intro was alrdy good... n suddenly while i was recitg the prayers, my mind when sumwhre else... while i ws stil rectg the doa, i ws like tersedar blik from the dream... (act i dont knw wht ws i thinkg....)... then i ws like "eh! lg skali, lg skali..." i said in front of evryone thre on the mic... "astaghfirullahallazim" i said... n i hd to start the doa back up from the top to the bottom...


hahaha luckily im in the girl school.... hahaha kalo ada laki mmg aku x nk dtg skola kot lps tu... nsib la mrs.h x mrh... bcuz she was standg behind me... n knw what? aku x rase malu pn...


it's a common human mistake.... hahaha pengalaman weh....

happy birthday friends..

omigod! jahat gile ke aku??? aku terlupa nk wish birthday kwn2 aku... kwn aku yg menjdi top 5 list yg first wish aku on my birthday... oh tidak... wht shuld i do.... babe, aku nk mintak maaf sgt kt korg weh.. aku bz lately ni... ngantuk je slalu.... sory sgt sbb x wish korg on the exact day... bkn nye aku x ingt birthday korg, hri tu mybe hilg ingatan kot.... minta maaf sgt2 dari hujung rambut til kaki... so kt sini aku nk ambil kesempatan nk wish korg one by one...


bermula dgn khal on the 8th of april... khal sory gila tau x wish ko hri tu... aku minta maaf sgt2.... hehehe ko pn lupa gak nk wish aq kn... so kite kira 0-0 la keh....


next is aishah teknik tj on the 13th of april... weh sory gila kot lmbt wish ko... den agak poning sket kblakngn ni... ko pn tau an aq ni sawan skit.... hehehe sory keh... nnti aq mintak kn h or c blanja ko mkn keh... hehehe


lastly to my beloved farahin bt sasaruddin on the 16th of april.... sory tau weh...aku rse bersalah gile dgn ko... yela ko bleh wish aku awal2 hri tu... tp aku sebalik nye.... sori gile weh... byk sgt benda berlaku dlm hidup aku... sori sgt...



this cake is specially designd for all three of you...

turng over a new leaf...

so... hi guys.... long time no see.... i just deleted my old post... the lurvy2 post... the kutuk2 post.... haish jahat jugak aku ni.... lately ni im turng into a not-hardworkg fella (juz tryg not to use the negtive words)... mcm mane nk berubah???? bila tnye soalan tu dkat org mesti dorg ckp "senang je"... yela tp bagaimana? apa yg perlu dibuat....? mmg betul la kte org, bile nk jd jht lps ni pn bole tp kalo nk jd baik mmg ambik masa.... mmm knape banda yg baik kena ambik masa yg lama??? ok from now onwards sy kena kurg kn tido...
sy hidayah azman akan cuba mengurgkn tidur sy.... hehehe k la guys... got to go... see ya in the nxt post....

the lazy song

PERHATIAN : LAGU INI TIDAK BAIK UTK KESIHATAN KANAK2 YG AKAN MENGAMBIL PEPERIKSAAN SPM TAHUN INI...

school... hmm?? this morning we hve like 'perjumpaan with the pengetua'... n yeah  we talk about result bla bla bla bla.... i can feel the burdens.. the hope of the pengetua tht we all will get straight A's for our SPM... she wants us to kinda mengharumkn the school's name... tht's the most thing, not just me but everyone wanted... so i think i better start it now... so first step, i have to finish all my homework on time... never try to delay... INGAT itu wahai cik dayah...


wht about all the crush2 thingy?? well tht, i just have to forget it... my mom alwys said tht "jodoh n maut ditangan tuhan, kita sebagai umatnya hanya perlu mempercayai takdir" (yg ayt akhir tu i add it myself...hehehe).. so dayah... kalau ada jodoh tu x ke mana... semua org diciptakn berpsngn... this is not the time for u to think of the 'dudes'... this is the time where u have to study... for mom n dad... i'll try my best...

straight A's!! AMIN!!!!

berjimba-jimba.... :D

in other to berjimba-jimba ths wednsday.. i have to finish all my hmwk... tht's the conditions abah gave me.. but i stil dont hve any idea wht was my hmwk n how many of them.. jap2, mari kira bersama2.. first bm.. then admt... mt??? bio notes... akauns?? nope! physics! lg chem ada ke?? agama x de i guess... bi tiada.. sejarah mesti ada...
wah byk juga... am i able to finish them before wed??? when thre's a wil, thre's a way... hahaha optimist gile...
so sapa nk ikot saya this wed??? jom la... boring ni...

bersiar2 ke sini sana....

so hari ni me and my family breakfast kat tanglin/tangling (i dont knw the correct spelling for tht name..sory)... kat kl, sje tuka selera... org kate tmpt tu famous... tp mmg pn... nak beli mkn punye kena beratur... so terpaksa la kn beratur... td i ate nasi lemak dgn lauk ayam sambal, burgerdale (btul ke ejaan??) n telur goreng.. sounds yummy, bt act NOT... sgt mendukacita kn... ayam nye keras (baling kt anjg pn mati) nasik die x berlemak lgsg... but it's not tht bad la.. mybe it's just doesnt suit our taste kot.. diff people diff opinion kn... n i drank iced lemon tea... it's too citrus.. masam gile... (ceh ada gaya pengkritik mknn tak?haha)... so lps tu pg la kt the mall.. nk beli pretzel.. mengidam le... then blik rumah... n for the first time aq pegi kl, n lengang gile.. menarik! :)