is he for real???

yeah... if u have read my 'u left me speechless' post... its about a boy tht i was n is into whose being a jerk towards me all the time lps dah bg harapan tinggi menggunung... yup he left me speechless, without saying a thing... he suddenly change n like kept avoidg me for no reason... i dont no why... hmm u know sumtimes its wrong to walk a way when u think its over... but actually theres so much more to say... my heart torn apart when i saw his status 'in a relationship with Amy (not a real name)'... i was like so shock n so patah hati... sbb dlu dia penah ckp tht he didnt want to think bout this relationship stuff sbb busy nk carik kerja lah bagai... cakap x serupa bikin... lps i saw his status, evryday i kept playing tht lagu 'Patah Seribu by Shila Amzah'... evry single day i played tht song... sgt patah seribu at tht time... so yah last saturday i mean kelmarin, he suddenly miss called me... then i  txt him askg why... he said saje je... then we txt je la lps tu.... he wants to say sorry for being such a jerk to me the last few months... n i said to him tht he's really a jerk but still i will forgive him... he's being the old him... the 'him' tht i was i love with dlu... n dia dah broke up with his girlfriend i just dont know wht was his purpose but i liked it... at the same time i think i wanna teach him a lesson... i wanna to see him terhegeh-hegeh at me... i want him to cry me out! i want him to know mcm mane rase nye bila gantung x bertali... but at the same time i just dont wanna lose him again... ahhhh i just dont know.... :/

ravi no more...

yeah.. u heard me (i mean 'u read me').... no more ravi... for all of u who dont know who the hell is ravi... here's an introduction for ya... so yah ravi (not a real name) was my admmt's tuition teacher... n yah he's an indian... he's a tall, dark n handsome... cliche? yah i knw but its true... i was having a huge crush on him when im 17.. yeah we were kinda like so close, i dont knw how but we did... hes like 10 years older thn me.... i knw right.. sumtimes we txt nothng bout admts... ok not sumtmes, but ALL THE TIMES.... thres a story bout tht MINI SKRIT... but yeah x nk crita... malu lah.... GMD je boleh tahu... *back to the story... so me n ravi aint no txtg or contact each other anymore... because i wanted too... cuz he's actg a lil creepy... i mean like he's calling me honey lah syg lah... n not to forget, those sweet talks... omg im so not comfortable wit him.. yeah dlu mmg rasa mcm terbang kt awan... tp bila dah lama2 ni rase strange... n he's way too old for me... yelah i ws just a kid tht time... now im 18 n i just think its not proper to like text wit him... the last msg tht i text him ws "sir, sory.. i cnt text u anymore b'cuz i'm so freakg busy lately.....etc.(i forgot act)" hehehe n furthermore i already lost his number... but the thing is, i owed him my 2 months tuition fees... dont worry i'll pay sooner or later...i really appreciate him for teachg me admts... always be.... :3

you left me speechless...

"i'm a loser in love"

"i'm not a princess

this ain't a fairytale

i'm not the one u sweep off her feet

lead her up the stairwell

i was a dreamer b4 u went n let me down"

"have u changed?

am i no longer in ur eart now?

when i think about u,

it hurts, it hurts a lot"

"why did u have to change?"

"hope this love will soon disappear

without a word u have left me heart broken"

i thought i was stronger but unfortunately i'm not...

people are people...

hey guys! we meet again in my new post.. how do u do??? hehehe.. wll act my post title suppost to be "PEOPLE NOWADAYS" but ya it sounds a lil lame... this post is about sumtg tht happens around me not long ago.. it maybe not about me, but somehow it's maybe about u...
yeah! there's a lot of peoples attitude in this world... well here is some rhyme-me-up... hope u enjoy it...

some people like to help

 while others just having their nap;

some people like to be on top,

 while others just be in the TOP SHOP;

some people like to tell the truth,

 while others like to eat sweet fruit;

some people like to backstab,

while others think it is juz a crap;

this is a humble advise from me

 a nobody to u;

when u know the truth,

dont mix it like a stew

be honest

b'cuz u will get the bonus...

Written by Hidayah Azman™



berlari berkejaran dlm hujan,,,

yupp! i just said tht.... smlm after training, hujan la sikit kat skola tu... time tu plak my mum ambik lambat (nk dkt pkul 4 bru smpai)... saya menunggu bersma 2 org kwn lagi tht is diyy n fara.... kami pn menunggu di 'pondok menunggu' bersama berlindung dibwh hujan (tragis x?).... then suddenly one of us came out wit an idea....


Fara : eh jom buat tego kat situ nk? (smbil tgn menunjuk ke arah empty parkg space in front of the dewan)
Me : aish gile....
Diyy : jom! jom la dayah...saya bersama hati yg bersalah pergi la mengikut kehendak mrk...(ceh pdhl dlm hati nk..hahah)


kami pun practice la kat tgh2 hujan tu mcm org gile... dari tego ke sparing smpai lah kick... lengkap! bila hujan mula lbat kami pn msuk blik dlm 'pondok menunggu' tu... blum habis lg smpai situ...


Fara : jom practice kat dlm skola pulak nk??? (haish fara ni mmg)
Diyy : nk practice kt mne?? jom!Me : .....(hanya menggeleng)....
Fara n Diyy : ala jom la....Me : boleh! tp angkat...(x angkat pn...kne tarik ade la)kami pn berlari2 ke tmpt yg ingn di tuju... baik punye! practice kat bangunn x berbumbung...


smpai je kami pun bukak kasut... mula2 lari2 mcm org gila dlu... then bru la start practce bagai dlm hujan yg lebat lg... tgh2 dorg practce, saya pn berjoging sorg2.. best wey, cbe la try... its really diff when u jog in the rain n when u jog in the sun.. mmg terbaik la... u shuld try it.. smpai kuyup bai kitorg blatih...jgn main2, kerja kuat tu.. hahaha

smpai je rumah kpala mula pening... lps smyg trus tido... then bgun blik mkn coklat n telan 2 biji panadol... then tido...
keesokan harinya tht is today... masing2 demam... da la ade grading lak tu... tp pegi je la grading kn... kalo x membazir den byr... nsib evrytg went smoothly... peluh2 pn kluar gak time tu so da ok la skrg...tu yg bole on9..hehehe


tht's all from me... the conclusion is MAJULAH TAEKWONDO UNTUK NEGARA!! hehehe



TV kata....

hahaha this time im gonna tell u what the TV said to me... ok la its not like the TV act talk me kn... obviously la x kn... aduh.. act i took this 'pesanan penaja' from a drama... hehehe

so it says :

"kita ni perempuan kena be with someone who loves us more...

sbb kalo kita love that guy sampai mati pun but

he didnt appreciate it, mmg waste of time la kn n lg

menyakit kn hati... it's more like clappg on one hand..."

so girls out there, when u read this post, try to undrstand wht i'm tryg to tell u...as for boys who read this post... jgn mrh aku... hahaha rlex arh... the conclusion is we need both hand to clap! heheheh see ya in the next post....

mr. VIP

hey2.... babe he's hot ya know...  yesterday i went taekwndo-ing at master's centre... hehehe... after the traing me n my belovd fren, diyy, we kinda stay for a while to polish up our patterns... (nk grading wey...)
tgh2 practce suddnly mr.VIP msuk.... i was like *W0W! hahaha gatal mata ni... then when he punch the punchg bag, its like *PAM! (im not sure whter it was his kick or his punch act)... another *W0W! right... gila bersemangt... n GILA HOT!!! hahahah



k lah tu je.... see ya in the nxt post..