is he for real???

yeah... if u have read my 'u left me speechless' post... its about a boy tht i was n is into whose being a jerk towards me all the time lps dah bg harapan tinggi menggunung... yup he left me speechless, without saying a thing... he suddenly change n like kept avoidg me for no reason... i dont no why... hmm u know sumtimes its wrong to walk a way when u think its over... but actually theres so much more to say... my heart torn apart when i saw his status 'in a relationship with Amy (not a real name)'... i was like so shock n so patah hati... sbb dlu dia penah ckp tht he didnt want to think bout this relationship stuff sbb busy nk carik kerja lah bagai... cakap x serupa bikin... lps i saw his status, evryday i kept playing tht lagu 'Patah Seribu by Shila Amzah'... evry single day i played tht song... sgt patah seribu at tht time... so yah last saturday i mean kelmarin, he suddenly miss called me... then i  txt him askg why... he said saje je... then we txt je la lps tu.... he wants to say sorry for being such a jerk to me the last few months... n i said to him tht he's really a jerk but still i will forgive him... he's being the old him... the 'him' tht i was i love with dlu... n dia dah broke up with his girlfriend i just dont know wht was his purpose but i liked it... at the same time i think i wanna teach him a lesson... i wanna to see him terhegeh-hegeh at me... i want him to cry me out! i want him to know mcm mane rase nye bila gantung x bertali... but at the same time i just dont wanna lose him again... ahhhh i just dont know.... :/

ravi no more...

yeah.. u heard me (i mean 'u read me').... no more ravi... for all of u who dont know who the hell is ravi... here's an introduction for ya... so yah ravi (not a real name) was my admmt's tuition teacher... n yah he's an indian... he's a tall, dark n handsome... cliche? yah i knw but its true... i was having a huge crush on him when im 17.. yeah we were kinda like so close, i dont knw how but we did... hes like 10 years older thn me.... i knw right.. sumtimes we txt nothng bout admts... ok not sumtmes, but ALL THE TIMES.... thres a story bout tht MINI SKRIT... but yeah x nk crita... malu lah.... GMD je boleh tahu... *back to the story... so me n ravi aint no txtg or contact each other anymore... because i wanted too... cuz he's actg a lil creepy... i mean like he's calling me honey lah syg lah... n not to forget, those sweet talks... omg im so not comfortable wit him.. yeah dlu mmg rasa mcm terbang kt awan... tp bila dah lama2 ni rase strange... n he's way too old for me... yelah i ws just a kid tht time... now im 18 n i just think its not proper to like text wit him... the last msg tht i text him ws "sir, sory.. i cnt text u anymore b'cuz i'm so freakg busy lately.....etc.(i forgot act)" hehehe n furthermore i already lost his number... but the thing is, i owed him my 2 months tuition fees... dont worry i'll pay sooner or later...i really appreciate him for teachg me admts... always be.... :3